Fragments

so i'm back again. i stopped blogging since God knows when but who cares anyway? nobody reads my blog anymore. haha. enough of those hoo-haa. anyway. i won't be graduating this may. the reason? well.. a serious case of misfortune. i dont want to talk about it.. i'm so over that incident. anyway since i still have 2 units left before i can complete my college degree, i decided to start looking for a job. i applied for a technical support position at S***s and luckily i passed. too bad i can't post the account where i was assigned but here's a hint: it's a popular name in the IT field and you can see the company's logo everywhere. haha. take a guess. my NEO training started yesterday and boy! it was fun. well except for the time when one of the trainors taught us how to compute for our income tax... grabe! i was close to having a heart attack when i knew how much will be deducted in my salary. the product training will start this thursday. i'm really looking forward to it. the only bad thing is the training schedule is at 1-10pm and the training site is in ortigas and i'll be coming from binondo. i have to get used to this.

even though i will not be celebrating valentines day with my arnold tomorrow because of work-related shits, i still have a lot of reasons to be happy. no make that three.

Reason # 1
our proposed system is now 60% complete and we still have less than a month to complete it. graduation is slowly becoming a reality.. LOL!

Reason # 2
i'm starting to get over "HIS EX". i'm getting there slowly but surely

Reason # 3
because i decided to be happy. i realized that dwelling on negative thoughts won't do me any good. there is nothing cute about excess baggages so i'm leaving all the bad memories behind.

hay... i just feel so happy today. well.. i hope this is not a one-day thing, you know how unstable i can be. haha!

1. i daydream a lot. and i mean A LOT. i daydream before and after i sleep. i daydream when i'm walking, eating, writing, drinking, reading. etc. whoever said that you cannot do two things at the same time is a big, fat liar. hehehe

2. i think it's very sexy when two girls kiss. no, i'm not a lesbian or a bi-fem and i'm super sure that i'm not gonna be one ever. wala lang, i just find the act really sexy and sensual. well, i'd rather watch two girls kissing rather than seeing two boys smooching.. bleeecchhh!

3. i can't openly express my love and affection to my family. but i can always be touchy-feely to my boyfriend and to some of my friends. but that does'nt mean that i don't love them, i can kill for them when the situation calls for it.

4. i was never a girly-girl. i'm like every other girl who enjoys shopping, boy-ogling, clothes, make-up and shoes. but i cannot stand sitting down with the girls discussing how adorable hello kitty is. DUH.

5. i can't think of anything else. haha! i don't find myself weird at all.

i've been itching to blog for the past 3 days but somehow i could'nt find the time and the privacy to do so. again, let me emphasize PRIVACY. blame it on my uber-compassionate grandmother, she ADOPTED (please take note of the term) her newly separated niece together with her 6-year old daughter who always gets in my effing nerves. believe me this child is annoying every member of our family, that includes my 7-year old cousin who has a high-tolerance to intimidation even to his most delinquent playmates. well, he used to. until the little imp came. i know i should respect my grandma's decision because she is the queen of our family and i love her very very much. but the idea of her shouldering all the expenses of her niece and her niece's daughther kinda ticks me off. you know when your husband leaves you for another woman and you are left alone with a child to raise. would you let yourself rut in the house of your RELATIVE, doing nothing but talk on the mobile phone for 16 hours a day? i would'nt do that. a job is needed to raise a child not a goddam phone pal.

*** i have so many things to blog about but the little imp is annoying the hell out of me again. i swear, one of these days i'm gonna explode. will blog again tomorrow.

When in Rome - The Promise

If you need a friend,
don't look to a stranger,
You know in the end,
I'll always be there.

And when you're in doubt,
and when you're in danger,
Take a look all around,
and I'll be there.

I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say. (I promise)
I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be. (I promise)
But if you'll wait around a while, I'll make you fall for me,
I promise, I promise you I will.

When your day is through,
and so is your temper,
You know what to do,
I'm gonna always be there.

Sometimes if I shout,
it's not what's intended.
These words just come out,
with no gripe to bear.

I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say. (I promise)
I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be. (I promise)
But if you'll wait around a while, I'll make you fall for me,
I promise, I promise you...

I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say. (I promise)
I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be. (I promise)
And if I had to walk the world, I'd make you fall for me,
I promise, I promise you I will.

I gotta tell ya, I need to tell ya, I gotta tell ya, I gotta tell yaaaa ...

I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say. (I promise)
I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be. (I promise)
But if you'll wait around a while, I'll make you fall for me,
I promise, I promise you...

I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say. (I promise)
I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be. (I promise)
And if I had to walk the world, I'd make you fall for me,
I promise, I promise you I will ...
I will...
I will...
I will..

1. more than 3 years ago, my ex and i broke up because he was still in love with his ex-girlfriend, though it hurt like hell i continued to communicate with him, after three weeks i took him back, i was so stupid and naive back then that i fell for his stupid gimik to win me back. after a week he dumped me again. the reason? he got back with his ex-gf.

2. i disobeyed and disrespected my parents for this good for nothing guy. guess who im talking about... the EX who dumped me twice!

3. just last week, my bf and i got into a fight.. it was solely my fault. i tried to patch things up but he refused. to turn the tables around, i tried to overdose myself. no, that was'nt a suicide attempt. i just wanted to get really really sick because a friend told me that when she and her bf broke up, she took 10 different tablets and she got sick for a week. so i thought that it could be the way to soften his heart. stupid noh?! but it did'nt work.. i don't know why!

* the ex-bf and i are in good terms right now. he's single and miserable while i'm very much contended with my love life right now. what goes around comes around.